Tomorrow June 21, 2011 is the last day of spring and the first day of summer. It is also significant because it is my last day of work. At 2 pm tomorrow I will officially be retired.
I have several reasons for making the decision not to return to work, the least of which is not my desire to be able to attend church services on a regular bases. Retail has had its good points with its flexible schedule as I never had to miss work for doctors appointments or for the things the kids did during the day but I missed out on a lot of normal things. With no permanent schedule I couldn't attend church, join any groups, or make advance plans to do things with family or friends.
Another reason for retiring is because of the lack of a relationship with my wife. She if off every Sunday and usually gets either Saturday or Wednesdays off. I get Thursdays and Mondays off. Seldom do we every get a day off together and to make matters worse, I work Friday, Saturday and Sunday mornings and she works 2nd shift hours so I never get to see her on the weekends when most couples are together. Wednesday's she works first shift and I work the evening shift and Tuesday I work mornings and she works evenings so at least four days a week we don't see each other.
The third reason I decided to retire is pain. I have tendinitis in my right arm and was told I have some choices: face surgery or learn to live with the pain. Well, I have been using max-freeze or apspercreme on a daily bases plus swallowing some OTC pain pills several times a week.
One of the side effects of my prescription medication is muscle weakness and sorenessand that makes it hard to sleep at night so I always feel tired. Nowi feel like I have to get out of bed on my day's off because if I sleep late I won't be sleepy enough to go to bed in order to get up at 3 am. Even when I do get time off like on a vacation my body is so used to going to sleep early and getting up early its hard to adjust.
I just want to feel normal and live a normal life and be able to do things like normal people do.
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